oh man. i was bumming around just now and the sudden realisation that im going to leave in around 3 months' time hit me. it hit me real hard. wow. seems like time took off like an express train the past few months! haha. although i haven't exactly accomplished anything constructive (as my mom never fails to remind me) , i had a really nice and enjoyable break. i've never been on a holiday for so long after exams. as much as i want school to start, there's this laziness in me that just wants time to stop so that i can bum around forever. =D i'm so full of contradictions.
i'm really looking forward to going london. what with all the mad Christmas sales, crazy LIVE football matches (haha! jasho don't forget k!), summer breaks spent travelling around europe and meeting new people. i'm really excited..but deep down inside, there is still gonna be an inevitable lonely part of me 'cos of all my friends and family will be here. and i'm gonna miss them. so so so much. i may only have photos to keep me constantly reminded of you guys..but they really mean a lot to me! :)
more often than not, people change in university. whether it's staying here or going overseas. but thinking on the bright side, changes don't necessarily have to be bad or negative. many people change for the good. i hope that after 4 yrs, no matter how much we have changed, we'd still be able to talk and hang out like old times. let's keep the childish spirit in us yea? haha!
i would like to age living my life in crazy ways.. hehs =) and i believe that all it takes is faith in that we
can and
will remain in contact over the next 4 years.
over this long break, i've also grown to know myself better. in terms of what i want in life and what decisions i should or should not make. some decisions are hard and painful. but in life, nothing is ever fair. one should learn to sacrifice certain things in life, move on and look forward so that God himself may bless you with greater things to come. i've lamented on life's unfairness once, but i've since come to realise that this is really God's way of pouring out his miraculous blessings upon us...
.:Xiufang:.
