like a hermit in my head
i think my body is malfunctioning. it seems that no matter what time i go to bed the night before, i wake up far earlier than needs to be. it's like a peculiar wrinkle in my sleep schedule, which i pray would go away soon, cos i hate the fuzzy state of mind i find myself in at 630 am in the morning.
was chatting to daryll just now, about squash about singapore.
wo yao hui jiamakes me think about coach francis, uncle maurice, uncle jason, coach zainal; about the usual mon wed trainings at slf, the usual tue gang at orchid park, and the saturday sessions at sp. hahaha its funny how i used to spend so many hours in the court...it makes me wonder what i actually did with rest of my time. now i can actually see where my mom's nagging is coming from - like how i used to make her so upset with me because i was over-training, how i could never make it back home for dinner(and even supper) because i was still playing at slf. and how im always spending way too much time at kallang, at the games, at training.
argh.decisions decisions. i need to decide, soon. i dont wish to disappoint myself, neither do i want to cause another upset again. i've been away from home for so long, the least i could do is to fulfill the promise that i made. and if that means giving it up, so be it.
.:xiufang:.
